Lately I have been thinking.... about some stuffs, about some talks I had with, not only some of the teachers that I have been working with but also my personal friends..... seems like I am spending more time with the kids at school then with them... Complaining liaos...... Haiz... Sorry to all my friends... cos sometime realli have no time to go out, cos my energy has realli been used up at school lers...hahahas... today I received a sms from a sec two student, that makes me rethink about my commitment to my work.... No doubt, its my nature to give my 200% in whatever I do... but sometimes, its just so discouraging as a teacher... trying to advise the kids that are going in a wrong direction, and yet unable to help them walk back to the right path....


When a advice was been given out to them and yet, they can reply you saying that its not my problem and they can do what they wants... haizs... when I see that sms, its like a knife through my heart... I have always believed that this student of mine has always been a mature one.. though the student smokes, and do other things that I will immediately bring them to police and charge them with the things that they done... but I am always not hard hearted enough to do that. As I always believed, When someone is in your life for a REASON. It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. Haiz.... so tired now.... I dun wanna walk down this path... for now lers.... Its always so tiring to walk alone.. I am starting to understand how my babi feels when all this crushing stuffs that just keep piling on her when shes alive. All I want right now is to be ALONE. really really be alone... and also to be with you. I really miss your smile babi... I really really miss it. So so tired.....
Baby,top. || 11:14 PM