Do you really want me to move on in my love life babi?? Why do you want me to move on?? I really dun understand.... why do you alway like to chase me away?? My birthday is coming soon... If people really wants me to make one wish, my wish would be that I can see you and accompany you forevar..... When I watch the movie "Pirates of the Carribean 3". I am so jealous that at least both the main lead can meet every ten years..... how about us then?? Babi, sometimes I really HATE you for being so selfish... leaving me here all alone. Forcing me to move away from you.....you says I have to stay on on this world because the world needs me... but I NEED YOU! Life really pass so slowly when you are gone... You remember lynette?? She just came back from england, she wanna meet me to see if I am ok.... I really dun know if I wanna meet her anot... Cos when I see her, its as though I have seen you through her... I think I will have a breakdown if I go.. She told me once that I should let you rest in peace since you are away from this life, dun let you worry about me in this life...
Feelings from me now : "Now I can only remember you when I see that fading photo, forgotten is that lonely corner that we used to meet, the things that miss most is your smile.. Whenever life does not goes smoothly, the more I think the more lonely I get.. yet the more lonely I get, the more I realised that its normal... I wonder if you are like me now, tasting bitter coffee and lonely morning sun. Suddenly realising that we spend more time alone, looking at the changes in the sky. If one day we meet together, I wonder if time will turn back? Maybe we have overlooked the feeling that we had other then hurting one another. If one day we have realised that coming together and parting peacefully is just a false impression that we give to each other. If we dun realise that, maybe we should give ourselves more time and space?"
Time.... do I have the luxury of wasting it?
All I can says now is I wanna spend my birthday alone... Happy birthday to me... (T_T)
Baby,top. || 1:33 AM