Yesterday meet my deaaaaaaar lynette~! (There~! I say it lers, dun argue wif me saying that why I did not say ahs...). And there is she with her parents~! Waaaaa sho stressful leis.... But it was a nice time.... I then stay overnight at their house.... its was... quiet.... I like it alots... yesterday night, we did not really sleep, all of us just kinda stay up till very late chatting with one another.... Lynette's mum was a lawyer, and her dad.... well, was currently with the states army. They take time out to visit their daughter while they are on holis. Both of them really stay up and chat with me while lynette was sho tired that she just slept on my laps. LOL, Tooooopid girl~! Wish I had a marker~! Waaahahahas den can draw your face~! Lyn's dad have a very long chat with me... he kept asking me why I dun wanna go to aussie with lyn... I also dun know how to reply him... Seeing I was kinda uncomfy, lyn's mum kinda change conversation... And that kinda ends at that... when lyn's dad went to bed, lyn's mum came and talk to me.... She says she knows what happens and its really hard for me to drop this burden as it has affected me since poly's life... But she told me unless I face it myself and come to a solution and be happy about it, theres no way I can continue my journey.... Its my battle and mine alone... after saying that, lyn's mum went to bed.

Then I was alone with lynette with her sleeping while I watch the sunset rise... At that moment, how I wish lynette is alice.... how I wish shes alive..... Its not fair to lynette... I know...And when Lynette woke up from her sleep, she kinda hinted me at something.... But I as usual rejected her in a subtle way... but she told me that no matter what she will wait... but I really feel bad about it.....

In this world, one person is destined to be hurt by another person... this vicious cycle keeps turning.... I feel so sorry to Lynette.... Alice was hurt by her exboyfriend, while she hurts me.. and in the process I hurted Lynette... huh ironic... but sad.. Lynette, all I wish to says is that I need more time to settle down... I know its been four years coming to five... its a long time.. but my wounds is not that shallow either..... Sorry for making you wait... who knows? Maybe one day, you might be the one whu makes me smile once again? :P
Baby,top. || 10:53 PM