Curse? Or memories from her? I really dun know... since my babi wants me to move on in my life, prehaps I should baaas. every now and then when I look and think of you, maybe it will not be that painful anymore lers, maybe it will be more painful too, I really dun know.
Well, moving on~! 3rd of July was my birthday, nothing much happen that day cos I was very busy with the on going competitions and hopefully we can be fruitful when the competitions ends :) I have high hopes on the kids, hopefully they can make it! Also what makes me happy was some kids gave me some pressies! Something that I used to shun away when I was still not so stable emotionally, Some kids know what happen to me, some dun know. I really dun know If letting them know what happen to me, you or us is good for them anot.... The only good thing IF I let them know is that so that they will not walk down the path we did. Over here, I would like to thank my two nu ers Kd and Mic. Hahahahas if you are alive, I think you would love them too~! Also not forgetting Emily.... her present was..... like Dejavu..... in her present I saw you... for a moment I dun know what to says or think.... See that I am kinda lost in doing whatever I do... cos whatever I did, I did it for our future.. but now, who am I fighting for?? That remains an answer I need to find out for myself....
Suddenly I felt that I have lost my wings, I am not as happy as I was before. Lots of people wish that they can find their long lost smile, so am I. Prehaps someday, someone is able to let me smile once more. Untill then I will just wait baaas, haish, time for me to walk the road again! :)
P.S. ( Relationship is a gift! No matter be a friendship or love or even family, so I hope people around me to cherish it before its gone!)