Fuck up lahs.... I really dun like this feeling..... Yesterday the individual sms me asking me if I can become back as good friends as before anot... I reply her I dunnoe... SERIOUSLY I DUNNOE.. Prehaps if that day I had been more bastard, I will not be the losing end....
Whats more to say now?? I had became a sacrifice in your relationships ler..... I became a victim... nothing more and less... Prehaps maybe I should really scold you and hate you... that will be a more easy way out.... And prehaps you will feel better.... Maybe I should scold you during that call and tell you that we will not meet forever lers...
I mean... I really dunnoe whats going on in your mind that point of time.... You told me that he told you that love is selfish... so why cannot you be more selfish to him and reject him right there and then?? Whats done has been done... forget it... I had just now sms lynn that I will be going to aus during march holis... and maybe after that stay there for good... prehaps, this time, I am going to look for an apartment there...
You told me that you know the pain for a person to leave your side... but and yet you still did this to me.. so whats there more to says?? All I can says that lets treat the 76 hours as a fling baaas... I am too tired ler.... Hows I wish sometimes someone I love can give me a hug... just only a hug... but guess I will have to wait....
Hope you and him will settled baaas.... I just prayed that because of my sacrifice, both of you will be married to one another... Its true that you did not treasure us... so do not repeat that mistake anymore...
I once heard a story from someone... she told me that when people were born, they were born with an invisible pair of wings... A pair of angel wings.... But once a person falls in love with another person... the one who gave more love will lose their pair of wing... because the wing represents their love... My wings...... is gone... period...
No one console me yesterday... I told myself that the individual did not treasure the gift well, so might as well move on... Maybe so..... Weekend now is so hard to spend now... So so so hard...very hard..... Maybe all along... it was a mistake baas....
Sorry to my heart wors.... make you pain again~! kekekeke I can feel deep down inside... its like a fresh wound on a old one... Its truly bleeding now... Prehaps, I should not tend to my wound baaas, just let my heart bleed to death....
My wings is really gone.... really..really.really gone.... (T_T) (T_T) (T_T) (T_T) (T_T)
Good bye to 11/01/08, 12/01/08 and 13/01/08~! I shall forget you ler oh~!
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