Its not that I am sad about the incident... but rather about the contents of the sms that I received.... If that individual had not sms stuffs like that... I will still be ok... I just want a clean answer.... not some ambiguos sms.... I dun like that seriously.. I dun.... If you had really meant what you say and did... then today, prehaps... things will be so so so different from where we stand now... You says you are glad that I stood by you during when you needed company... but... where were you when I needed you the most??
Like in my sms to you... I would rather you not say this kind of things to me.... Cos it will only makes all of us that much harder to make decisions that we dun wanna make.... Maybe you dun wish to hurt me that bad... and tried saying those things... But thoughtless help sometimes DO harm people... So thats why I dun help people necessarily.....
I am still not feeling good.. seriously... I am kinda not satisfied with the answer you gave me... but because we have been friends for such a long time... I dun wanna make things ugly for all of us.... You know me der.... I would rather get hurt then letting ALL of us getting hurt...
Its not that I am noble, I too am human.... I too sometimes will be selfish.... but... I really dun wanna do that... Mentally, its as though I am grabbing myself and chaining myself, not letting myself go to you because I dun wanna hurt all of us...
But I guess I will survive... after all.... I have been through worst.... Btw.... This msg is NOT directed at Lynn.... but someone else....
xoxoxoxoxo